Life For Now And Always

By May 22, 2018Blog

Guys. I had a baby. Three months ago today to be exact. When I actually think about the fact that three months has gone by since literally every cell of my life changed, I’m floored. I’ve been contemplating where to go with my next blog post since my last post. Originally I wanted to do a post about my maternity shoot (which feels like it was approximately 68 years ago). But then Mr. Logan Moon arrived and now that feels like old hat. Although those pictures are SO PRECIOUS I’ll always enjoy looking at them and reminiscing the time that we were so excited about the next phase of our lives. I can’t even make a joke here about how naive we were pre sleepless nights because my son is an actual angel who from the second he was born was sleeping like the dead. But that doesn’t mean the adjustments to life with a baby haven’t been REAL because they were and are and always will be through each new phase of his and our lives.

For me the most, giving into the role of new motherhood and leaving behind, temporarily, my business mindset was the hardest part. I feel like my identity has always been a designer slash artist by some nature. My whole life, my happy place was painting and drawing by myself. Music, movies or a tv show going in the background, I was at peace. So when that also became my job, I was in my glory. Don’t get me wrong, it’s still a job and deadlines, following trends and finding inspiration are always banging on my door but I’m grateful as hell that I love it so much. SO two weeks after coming home with a shiny new infant and a broken hooha I was like, I’ll go back to work now, yes? NO. Wrong. But that didn’t fully set in for another two weeks. When I then forced myself back into maternity leave. Working for yourself is weird. Having your studio upstairs is even weirder. I had to physically stop myself from walking up those stairs. Difficulty level ten.

But here we are, three months in and maybe getting the hang of it? Who knows. Not me. All I know is life is one long constant adjustment and in between, we should do our best to be mindful of each moment because the phases don’t last. As soon as I realized that (POST worrying that I would never paint again before someone reminded me that one day your babies go to school and you have free time again) I relaxed. And also became sad that one day my baby will go to school. The emotions guys, like a seesaw I swear. Life is fun. Or terrifying? I’ll leave you with that. And a compilation of maternity photos below.

Oh after doing my Instagram story polls (that almost gave me a stroke, THE STRESS) I learned you guys want to see more personal posts. John, Moon and I are going to work on photographing more of our adventures to share with you here. Thanks if you voted and if you didn’t, it’s fine. You’re probably also not reading this to even know that I know that you didn’t vote. Tricky.

My husband is an actual wolf, it’s fine.

Photos: Clean Plate Pictures

Hair: Melissa Price at Visible Changes Hair Group

Makeup: Dominique with Dunique

Dress: Ashley LeMieux